i am who i am

dont go about asking me change

for no damn good reason

do you have a problem wif me

being different?

not your average conformist?

why should i be restricted

well i'm sorry i cant be

who you want me to be

but end of the day

all i have to say is

people who treat me well

i'll treat them even better

people who treat me like shit

i'll treat you like shit too

(: idiot...

la vérité n'est pas vraiment aussi douloureux, je jure

alas i've found out

and so thats what all this is abt

so thats why all the words

that were never spoken

could only be sadly written

in my eyes

as i look at you

before.

i was too trusting?

i'm easily fooled

i'm easily broken

its saddening

this irony of life

you did what you felt

best to protect

to avoid

but yet on the other

end of it all

what was left in the void

the one devoid of your words

your friendship

the misunderstanding

that absence of translation

that wall around you

and i

did not serve its purpose right

it bore not noble arms

around those it surround

it held talons and spears

which each pierced through me

it seems i never knew

it seems neither did you

but for all that was done

i was on the wrong side of your wall

for now i see a crack

i see the light peering through

so inviting it is

as it had always been

now then

would you please

break down this frozen wall

this accursed barrier

could we turn back the time?

would you allow me to...

i dont want to lose

anymore friends

before i lose myself

well enought of strange poems and wadever

jargon i've been spouting hahaa lol

no one will really understand anyway

oh wells its gonna be new yr soon

and so time ticks away

but well this next 2 yrs

regardless of what it might

install for me

i do hope i would be able to

aptly make use of this time

to not only ponder abt my future

but also to better myself

well thats all i hope

for the problems?

well we'll just leave them out

for the moment

let them dissolve on their own

if they dont

so be it

dont really have much capacity

to bother nor to care

i was wanting to ask you

to talk to you

when you get back

but den again i think

maybe i shldnt probe

maybe i shld just let it be

for i know only too well

it would hurt

it wouldnt be nice

you might even not tell me

the whole truth

but i still really wanna know

stubborn dumb nut huh me

oh wells

we'll see when the time comes

ns life has been crazy and fun

it aint boring but it sure is

stressful

lol

on peut seulement faire tellement

sometimes in life

the things we want

are just not meant to be

but instead best

left at a distance

best left as it is

sometimes

there really isnt the need

to complicate things

any further than it

already is

besides

everything has its place

has its plan

so why disturb it?

just let it be

smile and cherish what

is before our eyes

things will be

in time they'll come

settling in even before

you know it youself

Brushes: H-G
Designer: I