Wednesday, October 17, 2007
i've yet to engage myself

in intensive studying

ISM as steffi calls it

(PS: happy belated bday steffi lol)

but i've made some small and steady

progress so far and its keeping me

motivated and going

though odds are high and stuff

just try la wad to do

cant help it anyway rite now

lifes just like that just do what we can

(:

hopefully...

this last 13 days i can pull of a miracle

lol you never know huh haha

anw just received the NS enlistment thingy

i'm due Jan 14 2008 to go tekong

lol the tekong boy

haha anw its pretty early enlistment

but i'm fine with it

haha cos i'm only required to attend

a 5 day camp at tekong

and its back to sunny singapore (:

hoho

sexy man haha


anw just some self realization for awhile

realized despite my playful and wild character

i've kinda matured and grown this past yr

perhaps its just the reality hitting me

too hard

arhhhh

seriously got too many plans after A's

and too little time

hopefully all goes well

(:

still in doubts abt wad course

i shld take in uni...

and also dunno if i eligible not lol

oh wells all i know

is that after A levels

its gonna be period of my life

where there isnt gonna be studying

and there is gonna be hell loads of fun

and finally can get to go clubbin again

get some personal life back yeah

also really need to get back in shape

and do the stuff i always wanted to do

(:


anw that day i was having this strange dream

i dreamt that i would go to another JC

and live JC life all over again

like go back in time sial

think i was in the jc wif grey uni

cough cough

but dreams will be dreams

but it was a kinda interesting dream

like u know i realised

like how a different environment

can matter so much

haha

if only can like those movies

go be a spy in JC

relive the JC life haha

but by the time i'm out of NS

alamak alr too old to pull it off

haha

spoke at : 1:34 AM

Saturday, October 06, 2007
insensitive?

to you i may be just some retard

to you i may be of no significance at all

to you i'm some parasite

without initiative living off others

whilst complaining about everything else

to you i'm just the silly fool

the fool who doesnt study

and is insensitive

do you even bother about me?

did u ever?

if u have, den you would know

what kind of person i am

so what if i spout rubbish everyday?

its just for fun

so what if i'm never serious

do you really want to see me serious?

of all the things i've done for u

of all the things i said to u

not once

did i ever

had ill intentions for you

was i insensitive about you

even if i did, i was well aware

and treated it as a joke

if u didnt like it you could have told me

i would stop

but i heard no such cry

the only cries i heard

were those of stress

hopelessness and of help

and every time i would respond

i would be there

i would try my best to help you

i would try my best to cheer you on

so what am i to you really?

not even a friend?

just some insensitive ass?

you are the only true friend i can

honestly and proudly call

you know my secrets

you know my woes

but i dont know much about yours

to me your the only one i feel actually safe around

because i thought i knew you

i thought i could trust you

everytime you would glare at me

you would roll your eyes

that didnt bother me

cause i knew it was just my daily dose

of corny rubbish that i dished out

but maybe deep down inside

you just looked down upon me

maybe u just always had this image of me

that i was a useless bum
WOW nice blank space (:
i was never serious and always playful

that i cant study and couldnt make it far

maybe

i would never know

but to me

someone i friend, is a friend for life

friendship to me is utmost important in my life

my empty life

and now

i've been shattered by your merciless words

those words who throw out so recklessly

with so much conviction

with such an indifferent attitude

it all seemed true

it all seemed too clear

if u really think i'm that bad

if you really think i were that insensitive

wouldnt you have known long time ago?

and i can tell you

thats not me

perhaps you will never know the real me

because i feel you are no longer one

i can reveal myself to anymore

i hate this feeling

its not right

i am at fault i wont deny

but what did i do actually?

i mean just a simple complain

did it really deserve such harsh words?

did i really deserve?

okay so i'm a loser huh

i dont take studying seriously

i dont take things into my own hands

feeding off others

causing an inconvenience to others

i am really such a detestable person

i am parasite

if it were all true

den so it shall be

for i have really given up everything

i held dear

you people i trust

you i trust

no more

no superficial apologies can amend this wound

no cheap excuses can blow this away

if you really feel so

let me know

for least even if i were that bad

i could change for the better

but still

for you if you still dont know

a cry for you

for i am broken

by you

my only true friend i hold dear



spoke at : 2:38 AM

my life is cursed

my life is burdened

really shouldnt let anyone

be entangled in this messed up life

of mine and this dammit lousy mess

everyday hurtful words are exchanged

everyday there is no peace

everyday someone will be angry

everyday someone will lie in hate

someone will sigh with despair

someone will be struck with problems after problems

someone would be accused

someone would be tormented

this is just a cursed life

a lousy life

a one messed up since the start

spoke at : 2:33 AM

the zombie deprived of a childhood

Christopher
06S21
SAJC
29th Student Council
full time zombie
doesnt believe in love anymore

all the little messages in a bottle



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