its time for me to change

to get focused

and set priorities

first things first

studies

its omfg in deep trouble

currently my life should and

will gonna be revolving around:

gotta screw all unimportant shit

in school and whatever


why do all good things

come to an end?



ever since year 2 started

i've wasted my time

wasted my life

been worried and emo

over friendship

life in school

council

myself

fed up of hiding already

cos i have no idea

why things have become like dat

its pissing me off

and making me sad



ever since 2007 started

i dunno what happened to tiffany n me

we're drifted apart

we dont talk no more

i always see her tired and everything

worried for my dear friend

but she seems to close up

her worries from me

not sure why or what happened

while somethings are best left

personal

and i might be just thinking too much and all

but i dunno it just doesnt seem to me

to be all the same like last year

everyone knows it

everyone sense it

nurul and jowy have also drifted

cant explain why also

our gang aint as close

everyone's filled with so much

trouble and shit

we've all changed and closed down

thought i understood you guys

but now i dont anymore

it hurts to lose friends

in such a stupid way

without reasons

bah

i myself have became an absolute

idiot

skipping lessons like fuck

seriously

been emo and lousy

all this while

sick and everything

confused blur disturbed

sometimes committing social suicide

dammit

i dont wanna leave SAJC

after 2 years

and look back

and laugh and cry abt

how i wasted 2 years

lost friendships

wasted time in council

destroyed myself

and ruin my future

after it all

it took a day to realise

a day to feel the pain

perhaps i was still high

after doing so many

crazy silly things

i have created nothing but

more awkwardness than

there was already to start

with in the first place

questions asked but

none really answered

know i shldnt care so much

but the words people say

just simply tear my up

was i wrong

where have i done wrong?

i know its silly to do

such things and all

especially on valentines

but is it a sin

i may ask?

if you too also

have been through this

very phase you condemn

me of being so

really dont know what

i shld do now

of course i know its

impossible

but

still only fools try

but isnt more foolish not to?

think i'll just run away

from reality

once more

hide from this all

sorry to have disturbed

you

but i just cant help it

not even sure if these words

will ever reach you

but it does

i just wanna let you know

i wish of nothing

but for you to be

fine and happy (:

cos i know myself

and wasnt expecting

anything actually

ha

i'm so lost in myself and

all of this

i really dont know what

to do seriously

perhaps maybe

you

would wanna tell me

please?

looking on the brighter side of life

life is beautiful

everything is

it isnt just about school and work

its about Life and God.

keeping my mind off it

embracing something new

oh dear little sunflower

i shall cherish your beauty

and nuture you (:

just bought myself this small little sunflower

its awaiting its bloom

so am i

hoho (:

happy happy today

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