just hours before

i read something i should never have

lol

i pity myself

trying so hard to believe

to not be affected

but yet still

i'm my greatest enemy

everything i do in my interest

always back fires at myself

silly me

i should stop

gorge out my heart

and forget everything

fuck and screw it all seriously

damn it

lets waste time

chasing cars

around our head

i need your grace...

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days have been long

empty

making my heart ache

cant really explain what is going on

stupid things just pisses me off

starting to become a loner in class

and finding both escape and troubles in council

what a crappy situation

starting to like to be alone

but yet again i hate it

i fear loneliness

wtf

there is this invisible barrier

this barrier that is stopping me

i think i'm turning into a paranoid depressed child

i foresee i will regret in the future

that i've messed up now

gosh

i shld be slapped

really hard

someone give me a reality check

lol

shall live dangerously

live crazy

live hiong

live it all out

and die young

as i always have

but now more.

music fills my soul

the bass keeps me ticking

the vibes make me alive

those lyrics ring through my mind

the beat seduces me to move

i so need to club

urgent

alrite peeps

art club is back in business again!

haha

to think i was the only member left last year

to what now is a 20 strong club with fresh blood from juniors (:

lol

first session!

we did our own ART CLUB tshirt!

hoho

hand printed silk screen shirts

love it man

made a black one this time, but cant really see the print

shall make a white one next week :D

cant think straight no more

someone please slap me

tell me the truth

tell me whats really going on

think i'm just killing myself

with my wandering mind

before anything even happens

now i truly understand why the 28th council last year

they all sat together on 2 tables during grad nite

at that time

i was wondering

why didnt they want to sit with their other friends?

classmates?

why still council all the way?

now i understand.

its a very depressing thought and a sad truth.

though it can also be viewed in a good way.

but its just life.

jc passes way too fast

too fast for people like us to grab hold onto

onto enough time that we need

needed to foster friendships

friendships that i cherish

its no longer me being paranoid

paranoia and realization are just too close

i look on in pain

with every word like daggers through my soul

with every word that patches me up

with every subtle thing you do it shatters me

with every sense of coldness i'm broken

some say the deadliest things are those of the unspoken

though you never said anything

i already know its a situation i cant salvage

i cant save my health

i cant save a friendship

i'm lost

bent and broken

dead in the heart.

strangers...

might as well...

distance...

plagued...

illness...

empty...

tomorrow?

useless...

cant get this song out of my head

super addictive and nice to sing too... haha

its also the death note 2 movie ending theme lol!

just what i need, a good nice song to make drown over my worries and woes...

haha

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Red Hot Chili Peppers - Snow (Hey Oh)

Come to decide that the things that I tried

Were in my life just to get high on

When I sit alone come get a little known


But I need more than myself this time

Step from the road to the sea to the sky

And I do believe what we rely on


When I lay it on

Come get to play it on

All my life to sacrifice



Hey oh listen what I say oh

I got your

Hey oh (now) listen what I say oh



When will I know that i really can't go

To the well one more time to decide on



When it's killing me

When will I really see

All that I need to look inside



Come to believe that I better not leave

Before I get my chance to ride



When it's killing me

What do I really need

All that I need to look inside



Hey oh listen what I say oh

Come back and

Hey oh look at what I say oh



The more I see the less I know

The more I like to let it go... hey oh whoa


Deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder

Where it's so white as snow


Privately divided by a world so undecided

And there's nowhere to go


In between the cover of another perfect wonder

And it's so white as snow


Running through a field where all my tracks will

Be concealed and there is nowhere to go


When to descend to amend for friend

All the channels that have broken down


Now you bring it up

I'm gonna ring it up

Just to hear you sing it out


Step from the road to the sea to the sky

And I do believe what we rely on


When I lay it on

Come get to play it on

All my life to sacrifice


Hey oh listen what I say oh

I got your

Hey oh listen what I say oh


The more I see the less I know

The more I like to let it go... hey oh whoa


Deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder

Where it's so white as snow


Privately divided by a world so undecided

And there's nowhere to go


In between the cover of another perfect wonder

Where it's so white as snow


Running through the field where all my tracks will

Be concealed and there is nowhere to go


I said hey yeah

Oh yeah

Tell my love now


Hey yeah

Oh yeah

Tell my love now


Deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder

Where it's so white as snow


Privately divided by a world so undecided

And there's nowhere to go


Deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder

Where it's so white as snow


Running through the field where all my tracks will

Be concealed and there's nowhere to go


I said hey oh yeah

Oh yeah

Tell my love now



Hey yeah

Oh yeah 

happy new year.

what would 2007 be?

well hopefully a crazy, hiong, and wonderful year ahead for all of us.

resolutions for 2007? nah...

goals for 2007? i've got a few...

- catch up on lost time on my studies

- shape up!

- new hair style?

- get gold for napfa LOL freaking NS needs this... zzz

- hopefully make mugging something more frequent lol

- ultimately do like damn well for a levels haha

- more friends! (:

the zombie deprived of a childhood

Christopher
06S21
SAJC
29th Student Council
full time zombie
doesnt believe in love anymore

all the little messages in a bottle

my fellow pirates o hoi there!

Ain __]
Angelyn __]
Charlene __]
Chris Raj __]
Cin __]
Edmund __]
Ermest __]
JacQ __]
Jodie __]
Jon __]
Joselyn__]
Kimmie __]
Mei Fung __]
Muzzy __]
Ni Zhen __]
Nicole Benny __]
Peiwen __]
Raine __]
Richalynn __]
Steffi __]
Tiffany __]
Zelda __]

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